Sixteen

You know what?
Im bloody annoyed.
Bloody annoyed because you think negatively. Pretty much ALL THE TIME.
God damn it mom I freaking know what im doing.
Understand and try to know me better
Rather than being busy all the fucking time.
Thanks.

X

Fifteen

One month + till SPM. Guess what am i doing? Nothing. The thing about me is Im lazy as fuck and i cant wait to get this spm shit over with.

Damn it Afrina.
I bet im gonna regret as fuck when i get my results.

SOMEBODY PLS MOTIVATE ME TO STUDY I AM BEGGING YOU *_*

Fourteen

People and their stupid fucking mouth. 
They never shut the fuck up. 
Afrina did this, Afrina did that. WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GET THOSE NEWS FROM?
If you dont have any prove of me doing whatever the fuck you guys said I did, dont fucking spread the news you dumbfucks.
I am super tired of hearing you dumbfucks making stories about me.
Why bother my shit when i dont bother yours?
These people really need to get kicked in the face. People who believes it also deserve a tight slap for being too stupid.
You people should all rot in hell.


Peace.

Thirteen

You know what?

I'm tired of getting accused when you have no fucking idea what is happening. I'm tired of fighting over the same thing. I'm tired of living under pressure. I'm tired of crying over this. I'm tired of hearing the same fucked up tone when you ask me something. I'm tired of living with someone who doesn't understands me AT ALL. I'm a teenager. I go out everyday, I make friends, I go home late sometimes. I'm supposed to live like this, while I can. I'm supposed to enjoy my teenage life, while I can. But no, You ruined my teenage life. By annoying my already fucked up life. Few reasons why I'm barely at home, first, because I overthink when I do nothing at home. Second, because staying at home makes me feel more depressed. Third, because I have no one in this house. I do have my little brother, but this is just different. He doesn't understand. My two elder brothers are both in Shah Alam. I barely talk to them, too. I don't feel needed in this family. I'm only a burden to them, always the useless one, always the one who got scolded by. You see, basically,  I have nobody, except my bestfriends and my boyfriend.

They are my source of happiness.

I forget about every problem I have when I'm out with them. The depression stops, when I'm with them. I love how they can cheer me up when they know I'm not okay. Even when I tried my hardest to not look unhappy. They take care of me, so well. Do YOU know I have no self-confidence? Do YOU know what kind of people I mix with? Let me clear this shit out, NO. They know me so well, when you don't know a single thing about me. You think I'm rebellious? That's fine. You think I'm an antisocial fucker? That's fine, too :) I just don't care anymore. I want to live my life. Happily.

They say overprotective parents raise the best liars.

So. Think before you ask me with that stupid fucked up voice of yours. Think before you accuse me. Think about my feelings. Think about my future. Think how to understand a girl like me. Think how badly I want to do things with you, like every other daughters do with their mom. Think, before you lose me. Think, before I grow apart from you. Just. Think.

I wish you'd be more understanding. I wish I could talk to you about everything. I wish I could sit in a car with you without getting in an awkward situation. I wish you'd spend more time with me so you could understand me. I wish you'd treat me like every other moms treat their daughters. I wish I didn't have to hide things from you. I wish, somehow, you know me like the back of your hand.

Twelve

My uncle knows I'm hiding something even when I'm faking the most cheerful smile. I don't know how he does it, but it kinda freaked me out. He came to my house for a small gathering today. He asked me to sit down and talk to him.

The old folks think I'm an asshole because I don't interact with my relatives. Honestly, Its not that I don't want to talk to them. It's just, I'm .. shy. And not just shy, I don't have self-confidence. I shit you not. I really have a self-confidence problem. I don't go around giving opinions to people. I keep it all to myself. Why? Because I don't want to sound stupid. 

The first question he asked was "How do you express yourself". I didn't even know how to answer that because I don't blog that much, I don't tweet that much, and I don't write either. And that was when I started thinking how do I express myself. 

And so he asked me to express more, give people my opinion, and don't ever think I would sound stupid because everybody has the same problem. Well, I hope this helps. *fingers crossed*

Eleven

It's pretty early but I just want to post this.

Birthday present wishlist:

1. An iPhone 5.
2. A nameplate necklace. (Been wanting this for yearsss)
3. Cardioid condenser microphone.
4. New laptop ....
5. Um. New watch.

My birthday is on March 20. Just telling ... hehe.

Ten

Hi! Me and Omar were just talking about our type of boy/girl. And it kinda made me think that I actually do have a type of guy that I want.

1. Matured, of course.

2. Adorably funny.
3. Good taste in music.

4. Romantic / Full of surprises.

5. Someone who can play an instrument? Haha. 

6. Err, good looking ... 

7. Someone who is dressed up nicely.

8. Someone that accepts me the way I am.

9. Someone who wouldn't mind spending (not necessary) 

10. Someone who understands me well.

11. Manja sometimes? :3

12. Someone who doesn't hate Bieber!!!

13. Someone who loves taking pictures MEHEHE. (Because I looove taking pictures)

14. Someone who can guide me to the right path in life.
15. Someone who performs his prayers 5 times a day. (Please *_*)

16. Respects me.

17. He must be .. taller than me? (LOL everyone is taller than me who am i kidding)

18. Someone .. who can sing? (Not necessary) (Kalau ada boleh jugak)

19. Someone who is not selfish.

20. Someone who will treat me likeI'm the only girl in the world. 

So, that's 20 of them o.o Bet there's more. Can't really think right now. Listed this for fun, Not ready for any relationship though. Single is too fun. Haha. 

I'll write again soon, xo

Nine

This post contains 3 videos .. Just telling.

So I was reaaally excited about Pierce the Veil and Sleeping with Sirens' concert so I did a cover of With ears to see and eyes to hear by Sleeping with Sirens. Did that for my bestfriend Sofia Parkes because she asked me to make that cover last year. You know what, this is one of the reasons why I love her. She has great taste in music. Am I sweet or am I sweet?! I even wrote an essay about her. And guess what the title was? "The person I admire" I KNOW RIGHT. GOSH DON'T YOU JUST WISH YOU HAD A BESTFRIEND LIKE ME?! HAHA. Kay, I kidd xD

So here's the video;

Yeap, My cat was really hyper that time. Wanted to put him in the cage but I know he's gonna throw a tantrum if I do so.

I made 2 covers yesterday, and I'm proud xD Because the last time I posted two videos in a day was ages  ago. I am too lazy now. You have no idea how lazy I am. I made a cover of I knew you were trouble by Taylor Swift, and the cup song in pitch perfect by Lulu and the Lampshades :3 Hehe. Danny taught me how to play the cup song. So, Thank you Danny! Practiced everyday. And suddenly I managed to sing while playing it yesterday. I was so excited so I made a cover of it. Hahaha.

Here, both of the covers!

HAHAHA YES I KNOW I LOOK LIKE A RETARD, SHH.

Yeap, still look like a retard xD

Haha, enjoy watching it! xx