Eight

I must say life has been indubitably fun so far. So much had happened. Being single at this time is really great. I spent lots of time with my friends. Just went ice-skating with them today. I fell for the first time! And it was all Syed's fault ._. Me and Syarif accelerated and there he was, suddenly in front of us. And then boom! Pants all wet. It was embarrassing though *_*

School's starting on Wednesday and I don't feel excited anymore. I don't want to face SPM. It's scaring me. Knowing I'd ruin the result I'll get is just .. scary. Oh, I bought school stuff pretty early. Well prepared, lol. I'm still not satisfied with my school bag though. Sofia and I went from Mid Valley to One Utama to find a Jansport backpack. And guess what? We gave up. I bought a bag from Roxy instead. It kills me when I see someone using a Jansport backpack xD Haziq's in Australia now so I asked him to find the backpack. HEHE. I hope he'll find one. If he does, Then I guess I might have to sell my roxy bag xD Or just keep it ... Oh whatever. Wait till he finds one then I'll decide. 

Something happened to my memory card. Now all the pictures and songs are gone :'( God. Can I cry?! I think this happened to Rozi recently. Memory cards these days are all shitty!!!! God damn it. What did I do to my memory card.. Or my memory card just can't stand my ugly faces anymore?! Sigh. I'm glad I still have the receipt though. Sigh. Depressinggg.

I think I better hit the sack now ... Kind of feeling lethargic right now. Probably gonna have it until tomorrow. God, I really need to fix my sleeping pattern. These eyebags are so not cool. 

Goodnight, x

Seven

I had a sleepover at Tira's and it was pretty fun. Though we slept quite early last night. So, I just got back from wangsa walk. Bumped into my friend Izzham at the taxi stand while waiting for my mom to pick me, Rozi and Jordi up. Lol, he made our conversation awkward. He told me not to make it awkward but it turned out, well, pretty awkward. Haha.

I was totally fine until my cat bit me. It hurt so bad and I think it kinda made my heart ache too. I know that doesn't make sense. But, whatever. I became emotional out of sudden. Maybe I kept too much feelings and was ready to let it all out. I cried and felt so pathetic. Maybe. Maybe all I ever wanted was to hangout with you, talk to you and not feel awkward. Maybe, I just need you to notice me. And maybe, I just need you to tell the truth. Gosh, I still feel miserable as fuck.

I'm having eating disorder again. Appetite, gone. Since yesterday. This is so unhealthy. But I kinda want to lose weight right now so yeah. Whatever. Haih. I wish I could turn back time. Feeling shitty sucks, feeling not good enough sucks, feeling weak sucks. Being me sucks, too. Ugh. Life is so depressing. Why, God. Why.
Lets say if I die tomorrow. Would anybody go to my funeral? Would they even notice I'm already agone? Sigh. Maybe people would appreciate me more when I'm gone.

I need someone to hug. I need someone to talk to. I need someone to hold me in their arms. I need someone that can calm me down. I need someone that can make me smile even when I'm in a very bad mood. I need someone that can wash away all the pain. Mentally and physically. Okay, Let's make it simple, I just need you.

Six

I've been upset for a couple of days now. God knows why. I haven't eaten a proper meal since then. I needed a hug so badly that I hugged my cat so tight that he actually let out a squeal. Don't judge me :( But fortunately yesterday, Sofia managed to cheer me up. I went through an old folder and found some photos of me and Sofia. Looking at those pictures made me want to go back to 2011 so badly. 2011 was definitely a year to remember. I'd wish to go back to that year anytime. Omar had cheered me up today, too. I am so thankful to have these two rascals <3

I went to WWM today to watch Breaking Dawn Part II. IT WAS PURE AWESOME. To those who haven't watch it yet, PLEASE. PLEASE WATCH IT. I must say, what I did today was all worth it. Went karaoke with Atira, Rozi, Faris, and Azry after the movie. It was fun even though Faris conquered the mic almost all the time :b Had a little story telling at NZ too, lol.

Omar and I are gonna go for a lunch and movie date after he finishes SPM, Yeay! Looking forward to see him. Seriously, the last time I actually hang out with him was like what.. ages ago? Haha. We are so gonna have fun. Sa excited.

Mom's way of waking me up has changed, No more asking me to wake up to clean Trigger's poopoo or feed Trigger. Its now bringing Trigger to my room every morning. And Trigger will do his job. Why does my mom needs to wake me up every morning. Why. I need my beauty sleep ok mom :(

Oh and, Happy birthday Zuliana Zilan and Zafran Zahidi! Hehehe. xoxo

That's all for my seventh post! Au revoir :*

Five

Hello!

I've been busy with my kitty lately, Hehe. Mom's allergic to cats but I don't know what made her change her mind about keeping Trigger the cat. Trigger came to our house on 29th September. And was so manja with everybody. He was sick. My brothers and I begged our parents to keep it. And finally .. After a long long time of wanting a kitty, I finally have one.

Its fun to have one, But when it comes to its poo ... Argh. Hahaha. My brothers will be like "You do it, Its YOUR baby" and I'll be making weird faces to them. We thought Trigger was a female, So his name used to be Tigress. It turned out that he was a male. The doctor rechecked his gender on our second visit to the vet. It was weird to call him Trigger. I still call him Tigress sometimes, lol.

Soooo, Me and my friends are watching breaking dawn part 2 tomorrow! Can't wait :D It's been awhile since the last time I went out with them. So ee ex si ai ti ee di! Team Edward for life, hahaha. Ah, too excited. Calm down, Afrina.

Um, so. It's over between me and him. Thanks for the memories, I'm sorry for everything. You treated me very well, but. I couldn't lie to myself anymore. God knows why am I doing this. I guess we're better of this way. I'm sorry, thousands of apologies.  Hope you'll find a better girl. I know I wasn't a good girlfriend anyway.

Goodbye.

Four.

Hello beautiful people.

I gotta say, my life has been so depressing lately. I feel so effed up. But luckily I have Sofia. She always make my day. I'm really glad to have Sofia back. I don't know what really happened between us two. But we didn't talk everyday like we used to. But when we meet each other .. We realized that the bond was never gone xD

Final exam is just around the corner and I haven't study anything yet. I'm so not ready for it. Probably getting more Fs. Yeay me. I'm like .. Literally lost in chemistry and physics. I can still catch up with add math. Though I loathe numbers since God knows when. I never really like doing math since I was in Primary School. And I feel so stupid when I don't know anything about it. So .. Yeah. You know what's my weakness.

xxx

Three.

Haluu!

We've been fasting for 7 days now. Alhamdullilah,

Happy 24th birthday to my brother, Adrin Azry. I love you even though you annoy me almost all the time. Haha. God knows how annoyed I am. Hope you're not reading this :p Going to eat somewhere tonight for iftar. Damn, You're old o.O When are you getting married la?! Been waiting for so long already :p I can't wait to get new nephews/nieces. I just can't resist cute babies.

Tweeted something about boys wearing hoodie/sweater look more attractive than usual yesterday. I thought I was the only one. Lol. Glad to know that I'm normal :p It actually popped into my mind when someone wore a sweater to MC the day before. Me and Atira had the same thought. Damn funny xD

I guess that's all I wanted to share, Bye! xx

Two.

Hello yellow :B

My first and second day of fasting went alright. I had a good break fast just now. Damn, good food makes tubby (my tummy) happy. Hahaha. Named it after my rabbit's name. I think its cute. Lewls. Named my boyfriend's tummy Tum Tum ^^ I bought my baju kurung and kebaya already. Yeayyerz. And now I just need to buy the one that me, Fiqa, Tira and Sofea are gonna wear together. Hehe. Damn, I can already imagine how my first day of raya would be like. Uuu. Money, come to mommy $_$

Tomorrow is a school day. I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL PLEASE. Even though school finishes at 12.30 everyday. Its just ... Tiring la. I just want to stay at home and shower at 6pm everyday. I'm such a lazy bum. And also a sleepy head. That is why I'd rather stay home and sleep.Hehe.

Omar Parkes tegur-d me on skype just now. I was just thinking about him before he tegur-d me. Damn, I miss him! Wondering why we stopped talking to each other. We used to be so close. Haha. Oh well, At least we're talking now. It's .. kinda awkward cause we used to talk so much. Almost everyday. Without fail. Haha. Damn. I hope we can meet up soon.

I guess I'll be going to sleep now. Goodnight!

Xx, -AA

One.

Hello beautiful earthlings!

So .. I decided to start blogging again. It has been a long time since I had a blog. As you can see, Ramadhan is just around the corner. I'm excited for Raya. Yeap, already. Too excited. Hihi. 

I hope I'll be getting more money this year. I need to go shopping .. Wait. Do I? Haha.

Oh and, almost forgot. Happy 16th Birthday Afiefa Affendy! Friends since 2008. Can't believe you still remember the love story video we made. It was damn embarrassing weh! Hahaha. Good old times, good old times :') Hope you'll have a good one. I love you :)
 So .. I guess this is a goodbye then?

More to come, hehe. Xxxx