I had a sleepover at Tira's and it was pretty fun. Though we slept quite early last night. So, I just got back from wangsa walk. Bumped into my friend Izzham at the taxi stand while waiting for my mom to pick me, Rozi and Jordi up. Lol, he made our conversation awkward. He told me not to make it awkward but it turned out, well, pretty awkward. Haha.
I was totally fine until my cat bit me. It hurt so bad and I think it kinda made my heart ache too. I know that doesn't make sense. But, whatever. I became emotional out of sudden. Maybe I kept too much feelings and was ready to let it all out. I cried and felt so pathetic. Maybe. Maybe all I ever wanted was to hangout with you, talk to you and not feel awkward. Maybe, I just need you to notice me. And maybe, I just need you to tell the truth. Gosh, I still feel miserable as fuck.
I'm having eating disorder again. Appetite, gone. Since yesterday. This is so unhealthy. But I kinda want to lose weight right now so yeah. Whatever. Haih. I wish I could turn back time. Feeling shitty sucks, feeling not good enough sucks, feeling weak sucks. Being me sucks, too. Ugh. Life is so depressing. Why, God. Why.
Lets say if I die tomorrow. Would anybody go to my funeral? Would they even notice I'm already agone? Sigh. Maybe people would appreciate me more when I'm gone.
I need someone to hug. I need someone to talk to. I need someone to hold me in their arms. I need someone that can calm me down. I need someone that can make me smile even when I'm in a very bad mood. I need someone that can wash away all the pain. Mentally and physically. Okay, Let's make it simple, I just need you.
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
Thursday, 22 November 2012
Six
I've been upset for a couple of days now. God knows why. I haven't eaten a proper meal since then. I needed a hug so badly that I hugged my cat so tight that he actually let out a squeal. Don't judge me :( But fortunately yesterday, Sofia managed to cheer me up. I went through an old folder and found some photos of me and Sofia. Looking at those pictures made me want to go back to 2011 so badly. 2011 was definitely a year to remember. I'd wish to go back to that year anytime. Omar had cheered me up today, too. I am so thankful to have these two rascals <3
I went to WWM today to watch Breaking Dawn Part II. IT WAS PURE AWESOME. To those who haven't watch it yet, PLEASE. PLEASE WATCH IT. I must say, what I did today was all worth it. Went karaoke with Atira, Rozi, Faris, and Azry after the movie. It was fun even though Faris conquered the mic almost all the time :b Had a little story telling at NZ too, lol.
Omar and I are gonna go for a lunch and movie date after he finishes SPM, Yeay! Looking forward to see him. Seriously, the last time I actually hang out with him was like what.. ages ago? Haha. We are so gonna have fun. Sa excited.
Mom's way of waking me up has changed, No more asking me to wake up to clean Trigger's poopoo or feed Trigger. Its now bringing Trigger to my room every morning. And Trigger will do his job. Why does my mom needs to wake me up every morning. Why. I need my beauty sleep ok mom :(
Oh and, Happy birthday Zuliana Zilan and Zafran Zahidi! Hehehe. xoxo
That's all for my seventh post! Au revoir :*
I went to WWM today to watch Breaking Dawn Part II. IT WAS PURE AWESOME. To those who haven't watch it yet, PLEASE. PLEASE WATCH IT. I must say, what I did today was all worth it. Went karaoke with Atira, Rozi, Faris, and Azry after the movie. It was fun even though Faris conquered the mic almost all the time :b Had a little story telling at NZ too, lol.
Omar and I are gonna go for a lunch and movie date after he finishes SPM, Yeay! Looking forward to see him. Seriously, the last time I actually hang out with him was like what.. ages ago? Haha. We are so gonna have fun. Sa excited.
Mom's way of waking me up has changed, No more asking me to wake up to clean Trigger's poopoo or feed Trigger. Its now bringing Trigger to my room every morning. And Trigger will do his job. Why does my mom needs to wake me up every morning. Why. I need my beauty sleep ok mom :(
Oh and, Happy birthday Zuliana Zilan and Zafran Zahidi! Hehehe. xoxo
That's all for my seventh post! Au revoir :*
Wednesday, 21 November 2012
Five
Hello!
I've been busy with my kitty lately, Hehe. Mom's allergic to cats but I don't know what made her change her mind about keeping Trigger the cat. Trigger came to our house on 29th September. And was so manja with everybody. He was sick. My brothers and I begged our parents to keep it. And finally .. After a long long time of wanting a kitty, I finally have one.
Its fun to have one, But when it comes to its poo ... Argh. Hahaha. My brothers will be like "You do it, Its YOUR baby" and I'll be making weird faces to them. We thought Trigger was a female, So his name used to be Tigress. It turned out that he was a male. The doctor rechecked his gender on our second visit to the vet. It was weird to call him Trigger. I still call him Tigress sometimes, lol.
Soooo, Me and my friends are watching breaking dawn part 2 tomorrow! Can't wait :D It's been awhile since the last time I went out with them. So ee ex si ai ti ee di! Team Edward for life, hahaha. Ah, too excited. Calm down, Afrina.
Um, so. It's over between me and him. Thanks for the memories, I'm sorry for everything. You treated me very well, but. I couldn't lie to myself anymore. God knows why am I doing this. I guess we're better of this way. I'm sorry, thousands of apologies. Hope you'll find a better girl. I know I wasn't a good girlfriend anyway.
Goodbye.
I've been busy with my kitty lately, Hehe. Mom's allergic to cats but I don't know what made her change her mind about keeping Trigger the cat. Trigger came to our house on 29th September. And was so manja with everybody. He was sick. My brothers and I begged our parents to keep it. And finally .. After a long long time of wanting a kitty, I finally have one.
Its fun to have one, But when it comes to its poo ... Argh. Hahaha. My brothers will be like "You do it, Its YOUR baby" and I'll be making weird faces to them. We thought Trigger was a female, So his name used to be Tigress. It turned out that he was a male. The doctor rechecked his gender on our second visit to the vet. It was weird to call him Trigger. I still call him Tigress sometimes, lol.
Soooo, Me and my friends are watching breaking dawn part 2 tomorrow! Can't wait :D It's been awhile since the last time I went out with them. So ee ex si ai ti ee di! Team Edward for life, hahaha. Ah, too excited. Calm down, Afrina.
Um, so. It's over between me and him. Thanks for the memories, I'm sorry for everything. You treated me very well, but. I couldn't lie to myself anymore. God knows why am I doing this. I guess we're better of this way. I'm sorry, thousands of apologies. Hope you'll find a better girl. I know I wasn't a good girlfriend anyway.
Goodbye.
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